"THIS && THAT"

1 OF MY WRITINGS, IDK WHETHER TO CALL EM POEMS OR SHORT STORIES, BUT THIS IS JUST HOW I EXPRESS MYSELF, ENJOY =)

EVER BEEN SELFISH WANTING BOTH THIS AND THAT
KNOWING THAT YOU ONLY DESERVE THIS BUT TOOK A CHANCE AT THAT
WANTING THAT BUT THIS GAVE YOU COURAGE
TO HAVE UR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO
BELIEVING THAT THIS CAN TURN INTO THAT
BUT KNOWING THAT IF YOU FAIL AT THAT, THIS WILL BE GONE
YOUR MIND IS SINGING "GIMME GIMME THIS THIS, GIMME GIMME THAT THAT"
AND STILL WANTING IT ALL AFTER KNOWING THAT "GIMME GOT SHOT"
NOTHING EVER DISCOURAGED YOU
WHAT ABOUT YOU HEARING "THIS AND THAT" FROM FRIENDS AND FAMILY?
NOW UR STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF CHOOSING
YOUR MIND IS RACING TELLN YOU TAKE THIS NOW!!
BUT UR HEART IS TELLN YOU THAT MAYBE ITS NOT FOR YOU..
HOW DO YOU SEPERATE BEING GREEDY FROM DETERMINATION?
YOU GOTTA THINK WHAT DOES THIS HAVE THAT I NEED?
OR WHAT IF THAT DOESNT WORK OUR FOR ME?
"I WANT THIS, BUT I NEED THAT...I CANT HAVE THAT IF I DONT HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF THIS"
NOW THIS AND THAT IS ALL BULL IISH
&& AS MUCH AS IT HURTS TO ADMIT
I ENDED UPP WITH NOTHING, ONLY BECAUSE..
I WAS BEING SELFISH.